Emilyyy. She’s one of the bestest friends ever. As in the best friend and not just my best friend. That too though, and I love her. Lots and lots.
I’m trying to be happy. Trying not to let what other people say or do affect how I feel. I don’t have the energy to care about he said-she said bullshit. I’m going to keep doing what I think is right and if you don’t like it, okay. But that’s your problem and not mine.
I know who my friends are.
So let's make a list of who we need And it's not much, if anything Let's make a list of who we need And we'll throw it away cause we don't need anyone No, we don't need anyone. -The Format
Let's seee. It is 8:51 in the morning and I haven't slept yet. Because I slept all day yesterday, 11am-11 pm, because. I didn't sleep the night before that. hm.
I would call Emily but she is at a silly thing called school. Supposing I had other people to call, they would be there too. But I don't. It's okay though. I'm alright on my own for now.
Nostalgia makes me anxious. If that's the right word. I looked it up in the dictionary but it only mentioned future uncertanties.
I want to connect or reconnect with everybody. Everybody. I mean that. I don't much like this isolation. I miss having people to love.
It is kind of sad that the only time I have been outside in the past..2 months is the transition from house to car. And back again. And even that's not too often anymore. I need some fresh air. So if it's the only thing I do today I'm going for a walk. mhmm. Nice weather today, yayy. I cannot wait for fall. I just got really happy thinking about it. ah.
